I am asking myself “do you want a relationship?”
I want to be in a relationship this I am clear of what I am not clear about is what am I really looking for.
Do I want a go with the flow relationship? We have fun go out no strings attached kind of thing.
Do I want a boyfriend and we are not looking past that kind of a relationship. We see each other only and have all the benefits of a relationship without the pressure of forever.
Do I want a traditional relationship? We date, have fun, and possible think about forever.
If I sound confused on what I want I AM! I grew up in a family where your goal was to get married. I tried that, it was not that hot. I did what was expected and we all know how that turned out (single mom). It just seems like now that a child is in the picture I have no idea what I want or what I am doing. Where do I find the time to date? When is a good time for them to meet Noah? When do I know that the whole thing is not a bust? I was on Facebook and I saw something:
“It's a very brave thing to fall in love. You have to be willing to trust somebody else with your whole being, and that's very difficult, really difficult and very brave.” - Nicole Kidman
I would like to be brave but that is a very hard idea right now. I know I have not been blogging but school and everyday life is taking over. However, I am not going to fall behind like I did last year. I went months without post and that was not good for anyone (mainly my stress). Single mom life I tell you.