I have not written in a month, well over a 31 days but who is counting? I am starting to see there is what I want to write about (amazing boyfriend and Noah) and what I am going to write about. I am so stressed out for many (some good some not) reasons I cannot focus on what I want to focus on, and this is not just with the blog. I am having issues with reading, school work, and a few other things. In order to get my flow back your truly has realized she has to change the days that she post, and start with a seemingly random question to get my flow back.
Seemingly random question: To what extent do you trust people?
The degree to which I trust people depends on the relationship. I am a truly trusting person, I try to believe that everyone deserves to be trusted until they given reason no to. With that said I am not going to follow a stranger into a dark hall or abandoned building. We live in a world where certain level of distrust must be there. If I know someone I am very trusting, and this is both a negative and positive thing.
I tend to believe someone on their word and nothing else, because that should be good enough. This can sometimes back fire on me and leave me blind to the pure lies right in front of me. My wanting to believe that people will always tell the truth (or at least always tell the truth when it matters) can blind me to the fact that people lie. People lie when it matters, about big things, and sometimes they just do not care. The positive of this kind of thinking is I always give people the chance to change. I am less likely to hold past dishonesty (depending on the degree of the lie) against a person. Everyone has the right to secrets, as well as the right to hold back if they feel it will prevent unnecessary pain. There are psychological and social benefits to secrets and I am okay with that. So in general I am a very trusting person if I know them or have known them for a while. I have to know that people are worth trusting because if not it is a lonely world.