The topic for the 7th day of my 30 day writing challenge is: What keeps you up at night? The topic is right up there with what is going on in my life.
What keeps me up at night foremost is Noah’s safety and welling being. At the moment I do not feel like Noah is in a household I am comfortable with him living in. I am also worrying about things that I have not really had to worry about since having Noah i.e. food, clean environment, and consistent routine.
I am also staying up worried about school, the move, living in a state that is not growing on me, stress, not having any friends or family around, not working, getting sick, and lastly I feel like depression and anxiety are sinking in. I feel like I do not have good days I just have good moments, at the drop of a dime I go from a good mood to a bad one. The mood swings are not only getting me more upset but they are stressing me out even more. I hate the fact that I cannot just be happy or brush things off like I used to. It is taking so much more time for me to let things go.
Those are the things that keep me up at night. Those are also the things that I hope to get resolved soon. I also hope with time I will be able to meet some new people and start to feel more at home, and not like I am living in someone else house.