Monday, January 4, 2016

The Royal F**k Up!

I am listening to/watching: The Mentalist S2, E2
Mood: Stressed, upset, worried, but loved.
Time:10:08 am

I have said I was going to be more personal and today is the day.

I got up this morning both excited and nervous to start my college algebra class. But guess what?? Nope I cannot get into the class because financial aid as not gone through, my number posted was not the right number, and the school does not discuss such things over email. NOT EVEN A HEADS UP EMAIL. On top of that the system would not let me get my financial aid information in before the 4th. So I may be forced to drop the class, take the class in 8 or 12 weeks instead of 16. If that is the case I am going to be already taking 2 other classes while trying to play catch up on math I am so pissed.

However, I am going to take this as a chance to practice a little faith and control my stress. Moments like these I stop eating, have a hard time sleeping, and get moody. I am making a stand now to not do this. I am eating a bar now and instead of sulking in my feelings I went and gave Noah a hug and kiss.  I am going to continue with mediation before bed, eat like I should, and get back into the mindset that what is meant to be will happen. I cannot control everything in my life so why stress about it.

Okay now to the blog now that I feel better (venting will do that). Today is the start of a 30 day (really 25 day) writing challenge. For this you are going to see: I am listing to/watching, Mood, and Time. I feel this adds a bit more of a personal touch. This week’s theme is Content That Reveals so I am going to get very personal.

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Shakirah
Shakirah

Shakirah is a single mom to a 5 year old. She is a blogger, teacher, and graduate student. Her goal is to bring a more positive and realistic look into the lives of single mothers.

16 comments:

  1. Whether or not the course works out your attitude is excellent. I'll see you on the challenge. (At the challenge?)

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    1. Thank you, I think its at the at challenge LOL.

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  2. I'm a single mom, too. My kids are in the "leaving the nest stage" but I remember the juggling, the worrying, the stressing, the not eating or sleeping phases--especially when things like this that are out of your control happen. It feels like the absolute worst thing. That's what people who aren't single parents don't realize. When we are already at that maximum overload level, it doesn't take much to make us feel completely overwhelmed. Hang in there! You can DO this! :) I'm sure you already know that.

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    1. Thank you, and you summed it up. One little thing just pushes you over.

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  3. More power to you, Iman! Everything happens for a reason, time will reveal! Have a great semester and look forward to seeing more from you xx

    http://www.sveeteskapes.com/2015/12/meetsveeteskapes.html

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    1. Thank you, and I am looking forward to reading more by you as well.

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  4. I am not longer a single mom, but I was for 14 years. I put myself through college with a little one too. I know it seems so hard, but it will fly by. You will be done before you know it. Hang it there!

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    1. Thank you! I am hanging in there LOL.

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  5. Hey Iman! I enjoyed reading as well! This is awesome because as single parent of TWO I have found myself breaking down in tears locked in a room just crying out to God for help! And he wanted me to give you this msg tonight:

    "Everything comes from within me, and I create my reality every second of the day."

    And this is why I meditate and not only that but positive affirmations are important too! I am the Creator of ALL of my experiences and my blog is to bring awareness to everyone who has the belief that things happen "out of our control" because we create everything that happens we either allow or resist. I want to help people practice allowing abundance into their lives and get to them notice how they are resisting. Its really beautiful how we do this all through the power of the mind! The mind is a battlefield and if your not careful of the way you think and feel and having an issue with guiding your thoughts it can be an unpleasant feeling! I want you to know the world is as its supposed to be and we look at it as how it should be. Everything definitely happens for a reason and if you ask the universe for clarity the universe always gives it to you! You attract what you feel and even in the troubles we must always FEEL GRATITUDE! What good came out of this? Look at that instead of what went wrong! And remember to give thanks for the good AND the bad and the ugly lol. Blessings to you and your family! May the Lord give you the courage to allow you to receive all that you truly desire! ��

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    1. Thank you, very inspiring words.

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  6. Been there, done that. I tried to go back to school in 2014, and financial aid gave me such a hard time, I eventually gave up. And I regret that I did. Keep moving forward and finish school. Don't allow any obstacles to stop you!! Wishing you much success.

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  7. Hi Iman
    Being a single mom is very difficult indeed, but I appreciate the way you handled your stress. I totally agree with you that if we cannot control everything in our life, why stress about it.

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    1. Sometimes easier said than done but It has been working so far. I have kept my stress down.

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  8. The best lesson I ever learned in life is to focus on the things I can control. Keep it up even when life throws you a sucker punch ever now and then. You're moving in the right direction! What are you going to school for?

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    1. I am finding that keeping the mindset is a lot less stressful. I am in school for psychology and sociology.

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